黑幽默

When I start to speak in English.

It means............hmm ,

maybe something happened or has happened , even is happening .

Sometimes , I felt that I'm not a chinese , or I am really a chinese .

How?

For the first thought ,

I change my speaking language into English when I feel that my heart is filled with feelings which I can't explain for myself.

So I use the way to become the real me , then I think things in a different direction .

That time , I feel I am not suit with a chinese , but more suit with a foreigner .

Second,

I think that I use the way to evade something bad in my mind .(eg:bad thought , bad mood , bad action)

Evade thinking in chinese tradition way.

Like the Social Psychologist said: Language effects the way you think and see .

So......?

I agree with the second reason , but don't know why .

Fortunately , I know that I feel disgusted now !